clothes shopping spree

bought two tops (a pink and white twin set and a beige waitstcoat) and two skirts (one black linen and one brown denimy material) today for under a £10 all in :) Wearing the twinset & black skirt now because they're so feminine and I'm in a really girly clothes mood today :)

watching QI

this morning before I go to work :)

enjoyed my day off

got a bit done, washed my bed linen, played WoW, watched QI

listening to vampires II

I'm now on with episode 2 of Project: Lazarus...

listening to vampires

I'm listening to the Doctor Who audio play 'Project: Twilight', which mixes vampirism, mysterious scientific experiments and east end villainy...

finished early today

to get a running start at the weekend, I'm not feeling so well these last couple of days, just really tired and yawny face all the time, I need to really relax and recharge the batteries

watched Doctor Who

volume 5.2 on DVD with The Time of Angels, Flesh and Stone & Vampires of Venice, then had a dream that weeping angels were hiding behind my curtains and if blinked they'd come out and get me!

housework

ok, apart from watching a DVD, I've cut the grass and put all my whites in the washing machine (when oh when will they invent an anti-apartheid washing machine?) and I've done a little hoovering too but it really needs emptying out so that's to do, then there's the dusting to do as well, I'm either a slovenly cow or a domestic goddess or more likely a cross between the two (a domestic cow?) some times it is bloody hard to be a woman ;) wouldn't give it up for anything though :)

Ashes to Ashes

ok, so I've watched all three seasons on DVD now and I must say it was a good conclusion to the story arc begun in Life on Mars, one small thing though I'd have had a cheeky little cameo by a Sam Tyler look alike near the end in the bar, just a brief glimpse of him through the door supping on a pint, oh and anotheinr thing I wouldn't have had them playing Life on Mars either, it'd have to be Ashes to Ashes for me, as the story was about the characters from that show moving not LoM as they'd already moved on...

rediscovered Star Trek: New Voyages

or Star Trek: Phase II as they call themselves now (not quite sure why they changed it as I liked the original title) I saw the first few productions a couple of years ago and kind of lost trak of them, but now I'm d/l B&F 1 from their site and I'm looking forward to watching it tonight.

weird dream

ok, so I was living and working in Brighton, which for some reason was relocated to the south of France, then I was given a new project which involved me moving two doors away to a new house. Then I met a cute woman and started going out with her which made me very popular in the lesbian community, then we were in a car crash with two friends which saw us go off the road and into a swimming pool. I saved us all and was made a Lady and given the freedom of the city, as well as being made lesbian of the year!

Big Finish Day

Big Finish Productions are selling off their first 50 Doctor Who audios for just £5 each :) I've bought all eight audios which I don't have: Jubilee, The Dark Flame, Doctor Who and The Pirates, Creatures of Beauty, Project: Lazarus, Omega, Davros & Master.

wore a dress in public for the first time

last night for the film I wore my black dress, I went for a kind of gothic look and it felt good to look and feel so feminine and be seen to be so feminine.

The Twilight Saga: Eclipse

This is my fave book of the series, I have this theory that the penultimate book/season/film in a series is always the best one and so far it's always proved to be true. My fave season of Star Trek: TNG is Season 6, my Harry Potter novel is Half-Blood Prince, my fave Twilight novel is Eclipse, my fave Star Wars film is Empire Strikes Back, and so on.
So a midnight preview showing of The Twilight Saga: Eclipse appealed to me on several levels. One that I get to see it before a lot of people. Two that it proves that I'm not some old maid who has to be in bed before ten. Three that I can still enjoy getting glammed up and going out. Four that I can take advantage of a day off work to do something that I can enjoy that isn't housework.
The film is very good, it featured all my best scenes from the book and put them up on screen. It's also got some great moments of comedy too, Charlie Swann's dry dead pan acting just made slightly amusing one-liners into huge laugh out loud moments. All the Cullen siblings get a moment to shine, although the focus is on Edward (naturally), Rosealie & Jasper. Poor Esme hardly gets any screen time at all, although Carlisle gets a little more. Victoria's general Riley gets a lot more screen time, which is necessary I guess to build him up as more of a threat for the final battle. It's a good film and it leaves things in a good state for The Twilight Saga: Breaking Dawn...

Girly Clothes Shopping Day

I bought 3 skirts, one pinky red, another beige with pink flowery pattern & the 3rd a turquisey woodland pattern on it.
I got 2 tops, one plain purple & the other a purple & orange pattern.
I got a denim waistcoat & a pair of denim boyfriend jeans (I don't like the jeans though.
I also) got a new black leather handbag for everyday use as my current one is getting a bit battered with constant use.

Lingerie Shopping

I've decided to treat myself to some new knickers & fishnet stockings, well a girl likes to have fun :)

I hate everything and everyone

they're all inferior and weak, they're not worthy to beg to kiss my shoes!

bought some earrings

a really pretty pair of uber girly ones too, silver & lead crystal teardrops :)

Bernice Summerfield

I've finally gotten around to ordering season 4 of Benny's adventures on CD :)

Would You? - A Poem

Would you walk on by as someone was beaten up?
Would you walk on by as your neighbour was mugged?
Would you walk on by if some got stabbed?
Would you walk on by if you were asked for help?

Would you laugh at some with a disability?
Would you laugh at the mentally challenged?
Would you laugh as an immigrant is abused?
Would you laugh at some with a genetic defect?

Would you cry if you didn’t get your own way?
Would you blame others for your mistakes?
Would you wonder why people don’t like you?
Would you be too wrapped up in your hate?

Would you care more for the criminal than victim?
Would you punish the innocent for being weak?
Would you stamp on the fingers of the needy?
Would you put your book on their face for ever?

Doctor Who - The King's Demons

A rather quick and simple story where the Doctor stumbles across one of the Master's crazy plans and defeats him in just 50 minutes! There's some jousting, sword play and lute playing as well as political intrigue as people change their minds back and forth between the Doctor and the Master more times than normal people should, could or would. It's also Turlough's turn to be chained up in the dungeon this time, while Tegan gets to make witty quips about the fashion of the times.

started plotting out a new book today

it's a very complex book so I can't just do what I normally do and make it up as I go along, it has to be plotted out to keep track of the characters, events and situations. it has some similarities to a soap opera, in that its set in one street and its about the people who live there, but considering two of them are aliens who make things out of house hold objects and own their own UFO, it's not exactly the same thing.

final face zapping today

the sixth and final blast of lasers upon my skin is today, I can't afford another course of treatments so this will have to be it...

The Big Bang

Ok, so not nearly as action packed as last week, this was much more of a cerebral story with the Doctor thinking his way out of trouble and then Amy thinking him back into existance. I like it how not all the i's and j's are dotted, there's still answers to be found and Christmas has never seemed so far away...

Am I Bisexual or a Lesbian

I've always been attracted to other women, but about ten years ago I started liking guys too, to the point where I liked them a lot more, but lately my interest in men was waned so much that I'm barely even noticing them anymore or wanting a sexual relationship with one, and I'm much more into women again to the point where I think I'd want to be woman and wife, am I still bi or a lesbian who had a bi phase?

booked Eclipse ticket

I've booked a ticket for the midnight preview of Twilight: Eclipse

bloody psycho arsehole on the bus this evening

I'm 6' 4" and I cannot sit in the buss seats which are designed for people half my height so this areshole forces himself down next to me on the bus, pushing himself into me so I'm practically pinned into my seat for the whole journey home barely able to read my book which helps me pass the time, and then when I try to get out to get off at my stop he goes on at me for not talking to him! Why do I get all the bloody psychos?

great drying day yesterday

I got all my towels and dishcloths done, then a load of clothes and then I changed by bed and got that done too. I think I'm going to need a new washing line soon though as the current one seems to be rotting away :(

Being Human

I've watched the pilot, the first season and 1 episode of the 2nd season so far. I'll watch the rest of the 2nd season hopefully tonight :)

The Pandorica Opens - Spoilers, sweetie...

Wow, what an episode and what an ending! This is Doctor Who on a scale that's just never been done on the telly before! All the little touches to the series were amazing too, Vincent, Churchill, Liz 10, River, the surprises just kept coming. So too with the Doctor's adversaries: Cybermen, Daleks, Sontarans, Judoon, Silurians, Autons, Weevils and many more unseen in their ships. Then the ending, it was just way too much to take in, Rory's back but he;s an Auton and he kills Amy. The Alliance imprisons the Doctor, River destroys the TARDIS and then the universe is destroyed, how can things escalate further next week?

food shopping

I thought I'd make cheese stuffed mushrooms tomorrow evening :)

national disgrace

a national team? more like a sunday publeage team! England do not deserve to be in the world cup if that's the best they can do, they fully deserve to go out the tournament if they can't win the next game...

training

4 plus hours in an unairconditioned room is not good for the health! And most of it told me stuff I already knew, so not the best way to spend a Friday afternoon really, oh well

I wouldn't let Sarah Palin be president of a chess club!

Well I wouldn't...

washing day

I'm doing my laundry now ahead of the weekend as its a good day for drying things on the line :)

jogging

I half jogged, half ran a short distance today to help me lose weight and get fitter. I thought I was sort of basically healthy, as I can walk any distance for any length of time but after ten yards of jogging I was ready to give up and lie down on the pavement for an hour but I kept myself going and I think by keeping at it every third day or so I might slowly get fitter and healthier and it also gave me the chance to wear one of my new sports bras which I must say were VERY supportive of what little I have up top (plus the chicken filets of course) although my lower half will need a little more support shapewise as there was a certain de-tucking underage that went on :( The sooner its all flat and feminine down the the happier we'll be...

half day at work today

so I can be a lady of leisure, although there's a ton of washing up to be done and I should really make a start on the washing as I'm in work this saturday...

near wardrobe malfunction

my tights kept slipping down all morning and I didn't want to wear my skirt with bare legs so I popped out at breaktime to get a pair of trousers, and they only cost me £1.99!!!

why can't door to door salesmen just die?

instead of bothering me when I'm busy? well not maybe die but certainly not bother me by banging loudly on the door in a bad attempt at some pseudo-jingle. Reorganising my DVD collection means more to me than what they do.

post

the last 3 books I've been waiting for as well as a CD I had on order and another one with it which I didn't order at all!

Hogfather

finished rewatching the DVD last night :) Sky's first Discworld adaptation is still perhaps my favourite as it's a highly ambitious story and the production is up to meeting it head on with very little compromise on quality, plot or production values. The largely studio-bound production helps with excellent sets that really look like real places and not really film sets at all.

found pk 2 sports bras

for £20, so that's 2 for £10 each which is about the best bargain I've found for sports bras on the net, so I can take up jogging etc with well supported breasts. I'm thinking of getting a bicycle with my corporate bonus this year, as well as taking up jogging to help me get fitter and lose weight, and for that I need all the fab girly gear so I look good when I'm doing it :)

really hard to find a sports bra

that fits me, either the price is obscene or they wdon't do my size, it's a bad situation, a market waiting to be cornered by someone willing to sell bras at a reasonable price, if I was in the lingerie business I'd be rubbing my hands with glee right now at finding such a new market to sell my designs to...

Deomon's Quest

more 4th Doctor audios from the BBC :) I liked last years Hornet's Nest series and I hope DQ is just as fun and exciting (and perhaps a little more linear?) as well...

The Lodger

Not a bad little story where girl loves guy, guy gets a weird flatmate, weird flatmate makes girl want to do somethign with her life, weird flatmate makes guy tell girl he loves her and girl loves guy too, then weird flatmate stops them both dying and leaves them both to get on with their lives together as a couple, how many times have we seen that story? There's sadly some football involved, also yucky tea, a weird omelette and possibly the world's worst modern art installation based on that scene with the wine bottle and cuppa in The Time Monster ever witnessed. Also did I mention the football? Luckily it's saved by some really good acting and a semi-creepy antagonist so girl, guy and weird flatmate can save the day and stay alive.

Doctor Who audios

I've been listening to four 6th Doctor audios, The Hollows of Time, Paradise 5, Point of Entry and The Song of Megaptera. Two are set on Earth and two aren't. Three feature alien invasions, one has humans hunting defenceless creatures for food and resources. All were originally intended for telly but were never used and have now been turned into audio plays, with various degrees of success.

playing WoW

I've nearly got my Death Knight up to level 70...

domestic goddess

I've mown the lawn, done 2 lots of washing up and put a load of washing in the machine and now I'm enjoying a nice cuppa

idea for a book

it sounds like a soap opera because its set in a street and its about the lives of the people who live there and each chapter starts with a new family moving into the street and ends with a family moving out of the street but to be honest soap operas are dull repetative dollops of bland meaningless pseudo fiction aimed at the lowest common denominator and I like my fiction to make the reader think for themselves, so each chapter will not be just about the people but they will expore humanity, its cultures and rituals and each chapter will be a different genre to the others...

trying to do a mix cd for the car

the 'theme' is the elements, like fire, dark, rain, dirt, light etc... I've got about 3/4 of a cd in songs at the moment, will try to add a few more...

new skirt & blouse

they've arrived and they look fab, my employer won't pay for the corporate wear it requires me to wear at work, so I've had to buy my own...

the trouble with rubbish delivery companies

is that they won't deliver the items they're supposed to deliver! They go out of their way not to do their job properly! WHy can't they just put the letter/package through the letter box instead of faffing about not delivering the item and moving on to the next customer?

the women's group - my first meeting

it was interesting meeting so many other women in the same position as me in person for the first time. They were a very diverse bunch of people with very different personalities. the topic this month was surgery and although we didn't discuss any of the actual physical details of the process we did talk about the emotive side of the process. Some of the women were much more along with their transitions than I am so it was good to hear them talk about their experiences. Next month is about hair removal, something I have a lot more experience of so I'll be on firmer ground then epecialy as I have my 6th and final laser treatment before the next meeting.

dying my hair

I'm going to dye my hair tonight, a reddy brown colour is promised, I'm fed up of blonde, as it never really goes blonde anyway and all that peroxidoxide can't be good for it, so it needs a bit of a break and a change can be good...

work was boring today

Just a bit of work in the morning, then lot of nothing and then a little bit now and again before leaving time.

Knickers - A Poem

Cotton, lace, silk and satin
Standing, lying or sat in
Soft and feminine clinging
Plain, patterned or frilly

A whole drawer full at least
Wearing them a visual feast
Pull them down with your teeth
Your actions won't be ceased

They define what is there
Sexy and naughty not bare
They hide the waiting lair
Come expose me to the air

They hit the floor so softly
Come on then, come and boff me
My ideals are high not lofty
My eye is open but doesn't see

Vincent and the Doctor

This has to be one of the best stories that Doctor Who has ever done. It's an amazing story with Tony Curran giving an amazing performance as the fragile yet driven artist Vincent van Gogh. For an artist who's work I like I was shamed into realising how little I actually knew about his life or his lack of success during his own lifetime. It's hard to think now that he wasn't amazingly successful given how valued he is and how prized his painting are nowadays. By contrast the series regulars are pretty much sidelined but they have their moments and there's little hints at the ongoing story line abotu Rory being lost in time and Amy's sadness at not remembering the love of her life. There's a nice moment when we see the 1st and 2nd Doctors on screen. Given that we saw the 1st Doctor in Vampires of Venice are the production team slowly counting upwards through the Doctors in preperation of the 50th anniversary in 2013?

trying something new

by adding some adverts,if they don't work then nothing lost, not that I expect anyone reads the rubbish I write anyway

skirt & blouse

found a nice blouse and skirt in an online catalogue that would be suitable for work :) summer is very much the time for wearing skirts as they keep my legs cool even in the heat and blouses are very much my fave top of choice for the office as they look professional and yet still look very feminine at the same time.

eye test tomorrow

I'm looking forward to it, my current glasses just aren't good enough :(

washing

it's raining so I'm having to wash and dry my clothes which takes longer than just washing and putting my stuff out on the line. not that I put my bras and knickers out on the line as I don't want men going past and perving over my intimate lingerie.

The Short Second Life of Bree Tanner

Not a bad story, one long super chapter without breaks ala Terry Pratchett, it helped the story flow faster and so I got it read very quickly. It's a suitably good taster for the upcoming Eclipse movie, but on the whole I'd rather read Midnight Sun, it seems such a much more interesting project...

excercise

I've been out for four walks in threee days and its just as well because I really od on the chocolate today because I just got so down and depressed because I was so tired and moody and cranky that pretty much everything got on my nerves in some way today, at least until I got out for my afternoon walk.

Alice in Wonderland DVD

watched this last night, it seemed quicker than when I saw it at the cinema the other month. Still a good story though and there's room in it for a sequel of sorts...

tomorrow

Alice in Wonderland is available on DVD and the Eclipse spin-off novella is out as well, which I have pre-ordered and paid for in advance :)

busy day at work

doing very little is very exhausting! luckily I got out the office at lunch time for a little walk about in the sunshine. got a couple of odds and sods, a pink england cap, some pink socks, a pink scarf and a couple of cheap books, none of which were pink.

Day Off Work

I've done a bit today, played WoW (as well as add a game card to take me up to August), contacted the DVLA about my misspelled licence and booked an eye test for this monday. I've also done some shopping and paid my rent as well, and I'm wearing my ultra fab and girly pink flowery top too :)

bills, bills, bills

paid my council tax, going to pay my rent soon and I've already paid my utility bills via direct debit, so that's most of my money gone now for the month, and I have the opticians to go to on Monday, and it'll cost me £100 to get decent lenses in a pair of otherwise free glasses.

Work was a bitch

not difficult just relentless past the point of absurdity, still I have tomorrow up, yay :)

one month in

and I don't regret my decision to start living full time at all, I just wish I'd had the courage twenty years ago but wishes don't mean much compared to actually doing and I'm so glad to just be able to be myself in public and not hide myself away. I love dressing in very feminine clothes, I love putting my make up on, I love accessorising my outfit and most of all I love carrying a handbag about with me, they're so useful for storing all the necessary stuff I need and they look stylish and completely girly. Who cares what others think? I try not to, I really do. Ignorance is no excuse for people's bad manners, the failure to be a human being is theirs, not mine.

Going Postal - pt. 1

Having read the book only twice (I've read other Discworld novels many more times) I found myself still somewhat surprised by the events of the story and the direction felt very confident and centred, much more so than Hogfather and The Colour of Magic/The Light Fantastic. The urban settings of the story give it a very different feel to TCoM/TLF which was very much set outside with only the Unseen University and a few other scenes set indoors. The austere wintery feel of Ankh Morpork in Hogfather feels very different to the dilapilated streets in GP, again giving this story a feel of its own. The realisation of Mr. Pump is both excellent and highly flawed. On the one hand he has a very expressive body language but on the other hand he doesn't feel as strong and relentless as golems are described in the books. Moist comes across ver well as a slimy conman caught firmly in the grasp of the Patrician and his inescapable net of doom. Adora is something of a 1920's Berlin socialite, I almost expected her to turn into Marlene Dietrich at one point! The rest of the cast range from the good (Steve Pemberton) to the average (Timothy West) to the camp (David Suchet). Charles Dance really should have been in the story more for me, his version of the Patrician is so intriguing, much more so than Jeremy Irons and at the time of TCoM/TLF I thought he might be the definitive actor in the role).

Sex and the City 2

a good film with some generous semi male nudity and male crotch shots to keep my eyes on the screen as well as an interesting camel toe shot/joke and a generous bra-less big breasted woman running shot to satisfy my love of the ladies. The boys definetly take a back seat in this film as its all about the ladies as they bitch and moan and support each other when they're down. It's about friendship and love and finding ways to have people in your life even when your interests pull you in different directions. There's also some genuine points raised about the need to keep the feminist cause alive and relevant for the 2010's or we'll all be eating fries under a veil, unless we choose to do that of course, then it's empowerment not oppression.

Cold Blood

OMG they killed Rory! Then he never existed! Rory was the best companion the Doctor's ever had, he was a cross between Turlough and Harry with a side order of Mickey and Jamie hold the Adric and Mike. How could they do that to us? What now for the series? I guess they thought it was a moment of high drama or something but they soooooo killed the wrong one, they should have zapped Amy imo. She's such a 1 dimensional uber-clingy version of Rose it isn't enough to call her a cliche. This is perhaps the worst companon death the series has ever done, it's right down there with Dodo and Sam Jones. Oh the Silurians story resolution was good too.

more flavours savoured

I've recently tried the Aussie BBQ Kangeroo, French Garlic Baquette, Spanish Chicken Paella, South African Sweet Chutney and Italian Spaghetti Bolognase flavours

quiet day playing WoW

I've nearly gotten my death knight Daffknee up to level 68 :)

weekendly shop

I've bought a few frozen things in for the long weekend and for early next week. I'll buy some cheap food on Monday for bait and evening meals. Also got the new HHGTTG novel, as it was on offer.

DVLA spelled my name wrong

on my driving licence :( I'll have to send it back and wait another week and a half for a new one no doubt :(

new WoW pet

bought one of those there vanity pets critters for my World of Warcraft account, as well as buying another 60 day game card and pre-ordering the new expansion pack, Cataclysm :)

girly clothes shopping

I popped into the catalogue shop in the precinct and got myself a couple of bargains, some nice brown cropped jeans, a pretty brown and orange flowery top and a raspberry jacket which will go perfectly with the raspberry wide-legged trousers I have on order with an internet catalogue.

referal to a therapist

I'm ready to be referred on to a psychotherapist and she'll be the one to prescribe me hormones if she feels I'm ready for them. This is another big step on the road, of course the main obstable is losing weight, I really have to shed the pounds (safely) now not only for my health but for the corrective surgery to give me the correct female groinal anatomy ie vagina, clitoris, labia & pee hole. The women's group are going to cover such surgery on the 10th of June and I have a fair few questions to ask those who have already undergone the proceedures.

new washing machine

My old one was leaking more than a geriatric ward after a 24 hour tea party, the new one looks great though with buttons and dials and led'a, I can't wait to get a load of washing into it and giving it a spin :) Also the delivery men were kind of cute.

shopping part 2

Bought some books from Waterstones, the black cover versions of Equal Rites, Sourcery & Interesting Times. Also got the remixed & remastered version of Megadeth's Youthanasia CD. Some interesting reactions to me wearing very feminine clothes in Durham, going from a couple of lads laughing at me to a couple of guys really checking me out and even another woman checking me out too, so the feeling good about myself outweighed the ignorance of the insecure. While I am bi and I am attracted to some women I haven't seriously thought about looking within my own gender to find a significant other as my attraction to men far exceeds my lesbian side. I also saw a nice white handbag in BHS but I'll hold off buying it until I get paid on Friday.

major girly shopping day

I've bought a couple of pairs of trousers, a pair of bikini briefs, a large floppy sun hat, loads of jewellery, a new duvet cover, a couple of books, an action figure and a DVD all for just £75 :) That's most of my birthday money spent already but the trousers are just SO girly I had to buy them and I need more necklaces, bracelets and rings for my jewellery collection. What I really need though is a dressing table, a jewellery box and a really good vanity mirror.

37 today

another year older, slightly wiser, certainly more fashionable and girly, this is my first real birthday all the ones before today were for someone else, someone who never existed except as an idea, so today I'm going to relax and take it easy :)

books

I've ordered myself the black cover editions of Pyramids and Small Gods :)

bought new bras

one white and one black, as a little birthday gift for my breasts :)

housework day

but I'm sooooo not motivated

The Hungry Earth

A very engrossing episode, I would have kept watching it if the story had been twice as long as it was just so carefully built up moment after moment and I didn't notice the passing of time at all, the Doctor and Rory made a great double team and I was actually glad to see less Amy this week because the guest cast were so strong. The story had a few echoes of the 3rd Doctor's first two seasons in it, firstly the return of the Silurians (Doctor Who and the Silurians), then the drilling project (Inferno) and then the church and the impenetrable barrier (The Dæmons). Maybe this two parter is an homage to the Barry Letts era, if so can we expect giant maggots and Buddist monks next week? I almost hope they turn up...

another first

not only my first day in public in a skirt but also my first day at work in heels, I wore flats to drive there and back again, but still I felt so completely feminine (if a little draughty at times) and can't see why I ever waited so long to deploy my legs in public. Although my tights laddered badly around dinner time and I had to keep pulling the skirt down when it rode up to hide said ladders.

book shopping

got the black cover version of Guards Guards, Men at Arms and Jingo toay :)

watching True Blood

I'm up to episode 11 already :)

shopping

got my Saint DVD magazine as well as the DWM special which looks back at DT's final episodes as the 10th Doctor. Also got a sandwich for lunch, a salad for tea, some milk for coffee and some frozen mixed veg for cooking this weekend.

pre-order

I've pre-ordered the entire series boxset of Ashes to Ashes, as I want to watch the entire series in one go from start to finish in one go. I did the same with Life on Mars three years ago and found that it was a very enjoyable story when I didn't have to wait a week in between each episode.

my glasses just snapped across the bridge

they were my favourite pair too, my other ones while being newer aren't nearly so good, one of the lenses is wrong and it's hard to focus on the screen as I type :(

home again

back from work and good news for me, I have tomorrow off :) I can do some housework, get some shopping done and I can get my DVD magazine from the newsagents :)

back home

from Brighton, I'm soooooooooo tired and yet not ready for bed just yet, I need to unpack, throw all my washing in the basket and stuff like that, before I even start getting ready for work in the morning.

almost certainly finally packed

for Brighton, I don't think there's anything left to take...

Amy's Choice

What a really superb episode, especially after the slight let down of the fake vampires of last week's story. The Dream Lord really is such a cool opponant and could well be the reintroduction of the 6th Doctor's greatest adversary, the Valeyard! Rory was so much better presented here than in his last 2 stories as well, sure there's a hint of Mickey about him but in a good way as Mickey turned out to be one of the coolest characters in the show and Rory was quite sexy with his little pony tail. Karen and Matt were on top form as ever, Matt in particular coming across as more bonkers and out of control than ever before, even though he was quite in control of himself at all times, I just like the delightful complexity of the Doctor.

editing my books

to update them with my new name, I've kind of forgotten over the last week or so and when I've remembered its been when I was unable to do so, like so much things I've meant to do and forgotten to do, I do worry about my memory going sometimes...

I just feel so comfortable being myself at last

At first I expected to be uncomfortable, fitting into a new life but it just felt so right from the very first moment. I was anxious, natutally, nervous even, but so excited and relieved just to finally be myself. I've found that many more people have been tolerent and accepting of my transition, there's been a few that haven't but that's their problem, not mine. After years of pretending to be someone I'm not and never wanted to be it's just so satisfying to be myself and live my life my way for me and not for others. It was seriously damaging my mental health and my physical health too, my blood pressure was sky high with the internal stress, now I'm myself at last it's right back down to normal levels again. I'm just so happy finally being able to be me, something most people take for granted.

still sending off letters

as some institutions remain firmly uncontactable by telephone despite that being their stated preference for communications.

getting ready for the conference

I'm on packing my bag, plenty of spare pairs of knickers, 2 extra bras, extra tights, extra tops, extra trousers, extra shoes and even a skirt! Then there's toiletries, and other things to consider...

blood pressure down

it's down to within a normal level :) I suppose the diet and the moderate amount of excercise I've managed to do have helped as well as getting rid of the most stressful aspect of my life, now to see if I can get my GP to start prescribing me hormones...

Life on Earth

I'm on with the second disc right now, it's a great series (if a little out of date now)

World Cup Crisps pt 2

today I tried the American Cheeseburger flavour, they tasted just like a burger king whoppa!

food shopping

I don't have anything in for tomorrow or saturday and I'd be tired and hungry tomorrow so I forced myself to go down to Tesco's and get some stuff in to see me through. I also got myself some ankle socks and I think I'l wear one pair of them tomorrow for work :) I also got myself the stuff to make myself some bolegnaese sauce which I can make saturday and freeze for when I get back on tuesday.

quiet day in at work today

I just stayed inside and read my book, rather than go out shopping, looking for bargains.

World Cup Crisps

I'm limiting myself to one bag a day, even then shared out around the office to offset the calories.

so far I've had:

English Roast Beef & Yorkshire Pudding
German Bratwurst Sausage (my fave so far)
Brazilian Salsa
Dutch Edam Cheese
Japanese Teriyaki Chicken

ordered Above by Mad Season

it's a 1995 album that featured the late Layne Staley from Alice in Chains as the singer of the super group

waiting for some details to change over

my bank have changed my name over but I don't have a new card with my name on it yet, so I can't pay any cash into my account, or buy things in the shops with my old one.

washing

while the weather's good I'm getting my washing done now ahead of the weekend

evil government

I give it until november before there's another general election

bought a cardigan today

it's pink and wooly and looks rather nice on me, I think I really suit pink, it's my favourite colour after all, for too long I was unable to say so, now I can with no fear or hesitation :)

threw out most of my unwanted clothes

and the rest are in the bin to go out next week, now there's only ladies wear in my wardrobe and drawers :) Now of course I need to buy lots more clothes so I can dress as feminine as I want to. This has been one of the happier parts of moving on :)

quiet day today

just staying in the house surfing the net and doing the odd bit of tidying up

green fingers

well more like mucky soil covered fingers as I've been out to plant some flower seeds in my two front planters, one's pretty pink flowers and the other's cool blue flowers. I have a third planter around the side of the house but I really doubt anything will grow in there after I tipped a load of weed killer in it to kill off the triffidy evil things that were growing in it, they could have even been Krynoid!

bit of light shopping today

some cotton face wipes, some black ankle socks, some frozen foody items, some kitchen paperand a can of impulse tease, the main thing though was being out and about in the glorious sunshine not being stuck inside on a nice day like this :)

trying to update my drivers license details

and the form is almost as evil as baked beans! It's a torturously complicated form, needlessly complex to baffle the applicant and confuse even the most sublime beaurocrat. I'd heap praise upon them if I thought they'd react to it like vampires do to sunlight.

Seven Days!

It's now been a full week since I started living full time as a woman and it's been the best week of my whole life :) I just feel so happy to finally express my femininity on the outside and not bottle it away inside behind a mask of lies and falsehoods. I feel, well not reborn, but renewed. I feel like I'm starting my life at last, really living it and not just letting it pass me by because I'm too afraid to be myself. It's been a long road, getting from there to here, to quote from the theme tune to Star Trek: Enterprise. Nearly thirty years of denial, fear, self-hatred and self harming. Three failed suicide attempts and a few near attempts, but no more. I can't let myself be afraid to be myself any longer, I can't live a life where I do nothing, say nothing, be nothing lest I let slip the truth. I won't be afraid any longer to say proudly that I am a woman, my name is Rachel, I fancy men, I have small breasts already and I want them to get a good deal larger. I want to wear pretty jewellery, nice perfume, do my hair fancy, wear blouses, carry a handbag, use the ladies room, be one of the girls at work and one day find myself a nice boyfriend. I want to claim my womanhood, to put it succinctly, and I'm not going to apologise to anyone for it.

cheese stuffed mushrooms

well I tried making them, they were alright, I think I had the grill too hot initially as they melted the cheese and gave it a hard crust on top before the mushrooms were cooked through, so I had to turn the temp right down until they were done all the way through. Still it's the best way to learn isn't it? There's enough left for tomorrow as well and I have a spare packet of mushrooms for my curry, I think I'll make that sunday evening and freeze most of it for during the week so I have something nice to come home to.

preordered doctor who 5.1

I've pre-ordered the first volume of the 11th Doctor's adventures, Matt Smith is such a radically different doctor to 9& 10, yet there's something very familiar about him, there's a touch of 1, 2 and 6 at times.

moved my bed around

I fancied a change and now it's easier for me to get out of bed and straight at my make up, clothes, etc than it was before. Also my head is now a lot closer to my telly for watching dvd's in bed on a night than before, so I'm not straining to see what is not the world's largest screen.

weekend shop

I got some food in for the weekend, I thought I'd experiment in the kitchen and I'm going to try to make some cheese stuffed mushrooms with beef meatballs. I've never tried anything like this before, normally I stick a load of things in a pan and wait until they're cooked through, but I thought it's time that I experiment a little. I also got myself some more traditional food stuffs and a couple of pairs of boring run of the mill tights. I've no idea why supermarket sell tights but it's awfully convenient if you don't have time to go all the way into town, maybe that's the reason?

busy morning

I popped into town to change my details with my building society and then I decided to treat myself with a haircut, so I decided to pop over to Dare U (they also do piercings) to get my mane trimmed into a nice easy to manage feminine style. While being pampered I paid particular attention as they styled my hair after cutting it to make sure I could repeat it myself tomorrow when I wake up with bed head. It only cost me £20 too, very good value for money and I heartily recommend them to everyone. Then I popped across to Tesco to get myself some hair spray, also a sandwich and some pretty shower cream plus Eragon on DVD for just £3. Then I popped into HMV for a look around while I was in town and ended up with series C of QI. I also got an app form for one of their points cards

Bumper Crop of Post Today

I got my new brown leather handbag, its very small but with a lot of pockets to keep everything tidy, ideal for going places where I don't need a big bag full of everything including the kitchen sink. My new brooches arrived too, they're very feminine and will accessorise my jackets for work perfectly. A couple of CD's too, a Doctor Who audio book and Skid Row's self-titled debut album. Finally the new ink cartridges for my printer arrived as well so I can print things out again like letters and so forth.

Voted

went to vote early this morning, about 8.20am, then I went to the newsagents to get my Saint DVD magazine and a woman's interest magazine, it's something to read when I have a spare moment and take into work, we all read each others magazines on our coffee breaks.

big shopping day

I took £100 to Tesco's to get myself some clothes and stuff, that's a technical term btw, and I got myself a new flowery pink top, a new blue denim mini skirt ala Amy Pond, a new pink hand towel for the bathroom, a new pair of pink pillow cases for the bed, a new matress protector and a pink new fitted sheet for the bed too, as well as a chunky metal bracelet which I'm now wearing, some dangly earrings, for the future once I've had these studs in the mandatory 6 weeks, the new Doctor WHo Adventures magazine, for the free bag, and the new sonic screwdriver, for my geeky inner fan gurl. I also had a look at their bath robes but they don't have my size in and I need a new duvet and pillows too, but I can get them another time.

election day

it's raining here, is that a portent or just weather?

Charlie and the Chocolate Factory

I loved the musical version when I was a kid and this new up to date version is just as good in its own way :) Plus it has Johnny Depp in it, who is one of the hottest guys on the face of this or any other planet. There's some chocolate and stuff involved to and some singing.

hoovering is good

as I've just given my bedroom a good going over with my Dyson and it's picked up quite a lot of dust that was hidden away under and behind my bed and other places. I think its necessary to have a really serious clean once in a while to keep the place neat and tidy, while other times a quick tickle around is enough to keep the carpets clean and dust free.

The Creature from the Pit

A reasonably good romp with Tom Baker as the Doctor and Lalla Ward as Romana, that takes us to a jungle world with a society that coverts the precious scraps of metal with murderous envy and a power-mad dictator that will do anything to cling on to her slender grasp of power by denying the overtures of an alien ambassador that offers as much metals as the peoples of her planet could need in exchange for a portion of the planet's global forest to eat. Faced with losing her power base should metal become a common commodity she imprisons the creature and hopes to starve it to death. Enter the Doctor, Romana & K9, who quickly deduce what is going on and how to save not only the creature but the planet itself as the creature's people have taken a deadly revenge upon the captors of its ambassador. The Doctor saves the day, of course, and is then off on another exciting adventure...

popped into work today

to get the photo done for my id card, it has my new name on it an everything :) Popped into my office to say hi to everyone, had a brief chat with the girls about my make up and my hair and other important things like that. They liked my new earrings too. Had a chat with another of the girls about the Kiss concert, she was thrilled by it too she had a decent camera with her so her photos are really nice and clear, where as mine are just blurry smudges of light sadly.

ordered an audio book

from Big Finish Productions, I love Doctor Who and this on has Paul McGann in it as the 8th Doctor :)

found a couple of brooches

at amazon, as well as getting myself a pink lanyard for work.

need to find myself a pretty brooch

or two to wear on my jackets and tops to add that little extra touch of femininity to my attire :)

new shoes & earrings

my shoes arrived earlier, they look great, very pretty & feminine. Afterwards I popped into my GP's to let them know of my con details & I had to fill a form out too. Then I popped into durham to get my ears pierced, it took me ages to find the place because they moved but I now have two jewelled studs and two plain studs in my ears, one of each in each. My ears are a little sore witht he studs but they don't half help give me a more feminine appearance :)

more name changes done

I'm almost there now :) Just informed the council tax people & the water board by telephone. The gas company and house insurance people want letters + con deed, so I have more letters to go out.

correcting an incomplete change of details

further to me letting the people who zap my face with lasers know I'm now called Rachel, they didn't update my title on their records so I got an e-mail addressed to Mr and not Miss, so I e-mailed them back 2 photos hastily taken with my camera phone of my change of name deed and they've just replied to let me know that they've now updated that part of my records :)

waiting in

for some shoes to be redelivered. They missed me last week because I was out and they delivered 2 days earlier than they should have! There's where being efficient gets you ;) For a 5 to 7 day service I waited to order so they would arrive at the weekend at the earliest, instead they arrived after just 3 days when I was at work, still I'm in today waiting for them, now they probably won't turn up at all knowing my luck, what's a girl to do?

downloaded & unzipped Kiss MP3's

although it took some trial and error to find a program to unzip the .zip file, which involved me getting malware and needing to restart my computer! Finally though I have the full gig on both the USB and my hard drive :) I might even burn it to CD so I can listen to the concert in my car :)

started my Kiss MP3 download

for the 2nd half of the Kiss concert, although it's going very slowly, so I may go and finish watching a mvie on DVD while it does that.

Back from the toon...

...and I've just had a bowl of salad to eat :) I was late, yet again, for my appt, I've only managed to be on time once so far! Still I used my 20% off voucher which saved me £30. Afterwards I had a wander around the toon looking for someplace where I could get my ears pierced, alas they were all shut, then I passed by a hairdresser's they said they didn't have enough time to cut my hair, I'm taking them at their word that 55 minutes isn't enough time. I got a few heckles, my first in 3 days of living full time, but they were nothing I couldn't ignore, if only that guy had meant it when he called me beautiful *sigh* but I know I only pass with the charity of others willing to see the woman within me, or their polite indifference which seems to be most people's attitudes. Also my shoes really hurt my feet, I've never had a problem with these one before which is why I wore them, but my left little toe got a blister on it something rotten and even putting a plaster over it hasn't helped that much :( Still I get to stay at home tomorrow so I can have a lazy indoor day keeping things tidy and bagging up more unwanted male clothes I'll never be forced to wear again :) All in all three days in I love living my life as a woman, it's the real me I'm showing to the world at last and I love the simple fact that I don't have to pretend to be something I'm not anymore. So what if people don't like me? I'm never going to have universal popularity, no one is. Here I am world, with all my flaws and strengths.

getting ready

for my 3rd blast of lasers on my face to get rid of the unwanted hairs there.

A list of bands I've seen in concert

roughly in date order from earliest to latest, with main band first, main support act second and opening act last, also please forgive any slips with my memory in getting these in the right order...

Marmalade
Showaddywaddy
Iron Maiden + The Killer Dwarfs
Megadeth + The Almighty + Alice in Chains
Megadeth + Pantera
Iron Maiden + Wolfsbane
Iron Maiden + Anthrax
Manic Street Preachers + Blaggers ITA + Credit to the Nation
Manic Street Preachers + Compulsion + Eve's Plum
The Wildhearts + Whatever
AC/DC + The Wildhearts
The B-52's
Manic Street Preachers + Ian Brown
Iron Maiden + Funeral for a Friend
Manic Street Preachers + The Delays
Kiss + Taking Dawn

funny weather

it was really dark and raining not half an hour ago and now there's bright sunshine!

edit - now it's raining again!

updating my books on lulu

putting them in my new name and so forth, as well as editing a couple of works in progress...

chilling out right now

I'm just easing myself into the day after such an amazing gig last night. Had a cup of coffee already and I predict another's in my immediate future ;) Waiting for the concert recording people to upload the gig to their website so that I can d/load the second half and listen to it.

Kiss - Newcastle Metro Arena

OMG what a gig! Driving there was a little tricky when I came to turn left and I was cut up by some random chav driver, making me detour and go back a fair distance to turn around again, then once I got there, I had to fish about in my purse for the £6 parking fee, before I parked up, brushed my hair out from the pony tail I'd put in for driving, then went into the concert, where I realised I'd left my purse in the car and not put it back in my handbag. I bought myself the tour bandana with the money I'd hidden in my jeans tiny pocket, before I went back to the car to get my purse.
After wandering around a little I decided to go up the stairs to my seat which was not the most comfortable but not the worst either. There was a bit of a wait before the support act began, luckily the arena played some good songs before things started. Taking Dawn were pretty good really, as supports bands that I've seen go, they owned the reduced stage they had to play with, some good songs, none of which I can remember right now, but I think I'll venture a look at their wiki page to see what cd's they've released/are going to release. They ended their set with a hard and heavy cover of Fleetwood Mac's 'The Chain', which saw their singer playing in the crowd for the final moments of said song.
During the interval I decided to pop to the ladies before venturing back downstairs to buy a voucher to get the Kiss set on a USB in MP3 format. Then I popped back upstairs to wait for Kiss to start.
They showed the band leaving their dressing room and walking to the stage on the display screens before the gig started proper and then I was grinning like a mad woman as the pyros exploded and fire shot up twenty feet high! Kiss were on absolute fire themselves as they played classic after classic, mixing in songs from Sonic Boom now and again, all of them destined to be classics themselves by the time the next tour rolls around.
Gene breathed fire, Paul strutted his sexy stuff, Tommy strutted as he shredded and Eric pounded the drums like the world was ending and that's how it was for the whole of the concert. There were guitar solos, bass solos, Gene vomited blood and flew up into the lighting rig, Eric's drum set flew too and then Paul flew out over the audience to his own little mini-stage.
Then the encore was even better than the main gig, and I didn't think that was possible! It ended with God Gave Rock And Roll To You II blending effortlessly into Rock n' Roll All Nite and by this time the whole venue was on its feet clapping and singing along, the Kiss Army was united in saluting our four generals, and then it was all over.
After making my way downstairs to collect my USB and walk back to my car. If getting there was tricky it was nothing compared to the nightmare of getting out of the Toon! I ended up driving down somewhere, before finally recognising a familiar road and going up in front of the train station and then onto the road leading home, listening to Kiss all the way.
Now I'm just chilling until I come down from such a fantastic evening and can get some sleep.

100 Minutes to Kiss

the doors open at six and the concert begins at seven, but I don't want to be standing around too early or sitting waiting ages so I'll probably leave home at six to get there for half six, the last time was was at the metro arena was 2003, so I'll have to try to remember how to find the arena carpark as I get there, or hope it's well signposted, and there's plenty of parking space left when I get there.

5 hours until Kiss!

I'm really hyped about seeing Kiss in concert tonight :) I've been a big fan since forever and now I get to see them live in concert.

changing details pt. 2

changed over some more details all online with very little fuss, won't bore you with all the details as there's more to do but I need a break so I'm going to play WoW for an hour or two.

changing details

it was very easy to update my university alumini details and my telly tax details online, credit to them for their customers service, however i've been stuck on hold with my car insurance company, edit, now connected and they're having trouble with changing my details, so i'm on hold again, i suspect i'll have to send them a letter and my c-o-n deed in the post to them.
edit, after being put on hold they came back and said they were having difficulty changing my detals but finally got them sorted out, and they'll send out new policy documents to me in the post with my new name on them.

cut me grass

well it still grows doesn't it? I'd rather have astroturf down to be honest, it'd save my hayfever for a start. Still any of my neighbours who've missed me coming and going in my feminine finery almost certainly didn't miss me this morning, which is good as I want to be seen about and about as a woman. The only problem is I listen to MP3's on my mobile via headphones when I'm cutting the grass and I didn't have any pockets on my jogging bottoms, so I had to hide my phone away in my bra! I think I'll get one of those tiny ipod thingys you can wear on your upper arm with my bonus this year, although I really need to save up for a new car as mine's only got 6 months, maybe a year left if I'm lucky.

Flesh and Stone

The resolution of last week's episode is somehow less than the greatness of last week which is I think the best episode of the series ever made. What really made it less believeable was the sudden animating of the Angels just before their defeat, it totally ruined the concept of them not moving while even the viewer was watching them, turning them from super scary into poor imitations of what they were in Blink and The Time of Angels. I really liked the character of Octavian, the actor playing him was really excellent, I look forward to seeing him in other shows and movies in the future :)

I feel so domestic

I've been doing the washing all day, too overcast and damp to put it out on the line sadly, so I've got my knickers, blouses, bed covers and towels all draped around the house to air them off so they don't go mouldy and smell bad if I leave them. Also I've been hoovering up too, mostly downstairs but I've got the stairs down too and some of the upstairs. My bedroom is in too much of a state to hoover yet, clothes and rubbish to chuck out everywhere and a lot of unwanted old male clothes to bag up and give away to charity or chuck out if they're in poor condition. Also I've done 3 lots of washing up to get all my plates, mugs, cutlery and so forth really clean so I can put them away so my house looks more neat & presentable.

thinking of getting a tattoo

on my ankle, the chinese characters for the word serenity. I'm a really big fan of the series Firefly and the spin-off movie Serenity, so much so I'm willing to mutilate my body to display my allegiance to the show.

random observatons on my first full day

I'm noticing that I'm wishing myself to be rather smaller in certain parts of my body and larger in other areas, much more so than before. My shoulders, hands and wrists could all do with being smaller, while my bum and bust could certainly do with being much larger so that I have a more feminine silhouette. Of course there's the unwanted collection of dangly things in my knickers that I can't wait to get rid of and replace with what should most certainly be installed there, to give me a smooth, sleek feminine groin configuration.

grocery shopping

I've been to the local Lidl to get my weekly shop in, well most of it anyway. I got salady stuff, some pastrami, bread & milk, some tic-tacs to keep my breath smelling minty fresh and some chocolates as a gift for my boss Helen at work who's been very supportive of me and my many, many issues. I also bought some more pairs of knickers, a couple of DVD's and a very feminine wrist watch, which I had to put an extra hole into the strap, as my wrists are unfortunatley very large in the circumference for a woman.

why is it?

what when I tell people I'm transgendered they always compare it to being gay? Not offended or meaning to cause offence by wondering it here, it's just a curious occurance that has happened four times now. Is it because my being attracted to men that somehow people assume I'm somehow a gay man who dresses as a woman? That's not how I want to be seen or thought of, I'm a woman and want to be treated as such, after all a gay man wouldn't want to be thought of as a woman, would he?
Gender identity is unrelated to sexual orientation, many times they run along the commonplace binary system that society often believes is the be all and end all of life, which it isn't. My genetic sex is male but my gender identity is female, this has no bearing on wether I fancy men or other women. I'm just curious as to why so many people think they're linked, maybe it's how they're raised? I guess there's still a long way to go in educating people about themselves and who we all are as individuals.

shopping spree

I've just had such a girly evening shopping! I went up to Tesco Extra to have a look at their jeans because they have a 25% off sale on clothing, I managed to find myself a good pair in my size with a free belt. It's good I have these jeans because I can wear them for casual and not have to wear office-style trousers all the time. I also got myself some rings and some hair clips because its annoying me at the moment by ffalling across my face when I lean down and I need something to hold it back and not do that. Now that I'm living en femme 4 life I'm finding people are much more tolerent and accepting of me as a woman, even though I'm still making clumbsy mistakes because of my inexperiences of not being raised as a girl, like putting my purse away in my handbag before getting my change, as before I'd have a handy pocket to stuff it into, now all I have is in my handbag and I need to be more comfortable using it. I also got myself James Cameron's Avatar on dvd to watch, probably tomorrow sometime.

done my eyebrows

didn't hurt, compared to epilating my face anyway, butthe redness and swelling afterwards will take a couple of hours to go away, still my brows are much better now, soft feminine arches instead of horrid bushy expanses.

bought a new jacket

for casual and office wear, its black with a very thin pinstripe design, it'll go great with jeans or office trousers :) The shoulders are padded which doesn't healp my already wide shoulders, but it should be quite warm for the office in winter as its fully lined :)

the weekend starts here!

so long in fact that it spans from this weekend to next weekend! Nine days off and a lazy 10am start when I do return to work (instead of 8am) I'm so looking forward to being myself, words cannot express the fear (the good sort of fear, the fear of trying to justify everyone's good wishes and well beings in my transition) and joy at being here on the threshold of casting behind what's getting in the way of me being happy and living my life.

officially me

it's officially official with legally bits and everything I'm Miss Rachel Georgina Morgan :) I know there's still a long way to go until I get my gender recognition certificate but it's a big stop on my way to being the me on the outside that I have always been on inside.

Lvl 64

Daffknee has reached level 64 this evening on WoW. To celebrate I've ordered myself the 2nd WoW novel archive along with a new purse, which I was going to get myself anyway but it was a good time to do two orders at once.

doing my vocal excercises

to try and feminise my voice as best as it can be. This will make things easier when I'm out and about in public if I can sound more feminine from the get go then I'll feel more feminine and confident which will enhance my mannerisms and thus my appearance/body language.

Waters of Mars

I decided to rewatch the 10th Doctor's most dangerous adventure on DVD last night and found it still held up well after five months. 10thy starts off all wide eyed and full of optimism and hope and along the way he gets fearful, regretful and angry at his own impotence before finally becoming arrogant beyond even the Master! When he realises he's gone much too far he realises that his days are numbered, especially when Ood Sigma turns up to sing him a little song.

So Happy

about being out to my work colleagues :) It's a big step closer to trying to live a normal life (well as normal a life as I can have, not having a womb which is nobody's fault, not even the Romans) and I can at least be seen and treated as a woman, which is what I want, the good and the bad. Now I need to sort out what I'm going to wear on friday for the first day of the rest of my big girly life :)

Out At Work

Told my friends & colleagues at work that I'm trans, they were a bit stunned at first but quickly came to accept me, the girls even bought me a cute Rachel mug and a really pretty bunch of pink & white flowers :) I felt so accepted as the woman I am inside and am becoming outside. I was so scared before I told them and then in a twirly whirl after telling them, the day just flew by, it was finishing time long before I knew it!

Leviathan

a mix of fantasy and sci-f like The Stones of Blood which sees medieval England set alongside futuristic spaceships & robots about a lost colonisation ship being exploited by all sides with the humans needing rescue by the Doctor & Peri, not a bad story but a little confusing at times...

Mission to Magnus

a decent adaptation of the novel, holding the Ice Warriors back to almost the end of part 1 seemed a bit of a shame really as they're the focus of much of the story's plot, the rest of it is just bumph and padding to ruin and stretch the plot out past what should have been an exciting one disc adventure...

listening to Curse of the Daleks

it's an interesting audio play, it doesn't have the Doctor in it though...

The Time of Angels

10/10 just isn't high enough praise for this Hintonesque sequel to two of the most popular elements of the Tennant era, The Weeping Angels and River Song These very different story elements are woven together in a very grand and graphic space opera with glamour and grime getting an equal share in the mix. It could have all gone so very wrong but there's not one scene that isn't perfectly executed, allowing each moment to have its own time while building to the overall whole and the interplay between the characters is both complex and simple, taking so many disperate characters each with their own agenda and putting them on a clash with an enemy which gives them very few options, and in the end seemingly only one...

3 new Who books

I got the 3 new Doctor Who novels today from Waterstones, buy 2 get 1 free :) I also bought the telegraph for the free Runaway Train audiobook, I kept the CD and gave the paper away. It's going to be a very Who-y weekend here :)

WoW - good stuff

not only is Daffknee lvl 2, but she's got the next flying skill I was after so now I can fly her about in outland and see things from a different (and safer) perspective, I'll have to pop back to Ebon Hold at some point to see if there's any more training available for her, though there's have a few quests in the swamp that she needs to do first for the gold and xp.

washing done

I've done my washing for the week, it'll save me time tomorrow after work when I'll be tired and so I can do the washing up then instead. I don't put my knickers out on the line, in case someone tries to steal them, there was a spate of knicker nicking a few years ago and I'd rather not have to replace mine, especially the more expensive ones.

playing wow

Daffknee is almost up to lvl 62 :) a FEW MORE HOURS TO GAIN THE xp AND SHE'LL BE THERE, AND ALSO i HOPE TO RAISE THE CASH TONIGHT TO GET HER THE RIDING LESSONS SO SHE CAN USE HER FLYING mount to travel around the place :)

Flight 666

a week after the volcano grounded all air flights I'm celebrating the flying ban being lifted by listening to Iron Maiden's Flight 666 live album :) 16 great songs, some long time classics and a few resurrected hits from long ago...

WoW-ed

my game card arrived in the post yesterday, in time for me to add it so I can have uninterrupted playing :) I'll have to leave myself more prominent reminders for next time...

Too Tired for WoW

I want to play, to try and get Daffknee up to lvl 61 but I just don't have enough focus left to do that, I'll just have to get up super early in the morning and play then.

Great Chat About X-Men Characters

with one of my work colleagues, she loves Wolverine and I adore Cyclos.

Green Green Grass DVD

bought season 3 on DVD at lunchtime, the only high spot of an otherwise mostly depressing day

Tough Day

at work, really did loads of work, tired now, but not sleepy tired :(

Poem of the Day

Walking With Shoes

Getting from A to B should be easy, see
But sometimes the journey is such fun
And the footwear choices can be key
Boots for rain and sandals for the sun
Going places at random is pretty nice too
It can be good to slink or even skip
Wandering at random without a clue
Going anywhere on an interesting trip
Flats are so fun for everyday wear
Whatever I pick reflects upon me
Heels are for partying without a care
The feminine footwear of this she
There's sometimes hurting and pain
But I think of the feminine chic I gain

Playing World of Warcraft

I've just gotten my Orc Death Knight Daffknee to lvl 60 and now I'm trying to find her a riding instructor to take her skill to the next level so I can use flying mounts and not just land-based ones.

Speech Therapy

attended my appt today, I think it went well, Susan gave me some excercises to do to help feminize my voice. I was also out and proud for the very first time entirely as myself, I was nervous but tried to be confident or at least give the air of confidence so that others saw me as my womanly self and not the lie I've lived behind my whole life until that point. Now I've started telling the truth about myself to the world, I can be myself at last :)

Blood Pressure Check

got it measured again this morning, its down from last time, which is good, not sure how exactly as I've had one or two choccy bars I shouldn't have really had ;)

Iron Man 2 OST

listening to this on loop for much of the day, some of AC/DC's best known songs with some lesser known gems thrown in too. Shoot to Thrill is a classic punch the air song and seems to serve as much as a trailer for the film as this CD.